Outside of my addiction I found that I am an optimist, I see the brighter side of life, always noticing the good in everything. Even when I’m having a bad day, I believe there’s something to be learned by it all. Know matter how cloudy the day the sun is shining somewhere. This attitude serves me well because no matter what I may be going through it’s always for the best. I say, give me this or better and it’s always better, it’s the law of attraction at it’s finest. As far as I’m concerned, nothing can be worst than one of my bad days using. When you look at your life in moments, there’s nothing you can’t handle when you remember to breathe, just breathe!
In today’s world individuals are becoming more and more self absorbed. They can’t find the time to listen. Having a conversation where you feel heard or validated is a rarity. People don’t feel their options matter, they don’t feel like they can make a difference. Between the hustle and bustle your slowly loosing sight of what really matters. When it’s been in front of you all a long, if only you took the time to listen. It’s in every person you walk by and never take the time to say hi, or every homeless person you pass by and never acknowledge. People reach out everyday hoping someone will listen. Let it be you that makes a difference!
The connections we make determine our success or our failures. We choose them based on our beliefs. For example, if we’re insecure and untrustworthy, our connections will be insecure and untrustworthy. We cannot secure positive traits from others unless we embody them ourselves. Based on this knowledge, in order for growth to exist you must first embody what you desire in others, and your connections will be drawn to you, your supports will either motivate or deflate. Choose them wisely.
When you find yourself in a toxic lifestyle, your reacting to everything around you, and everything you see and feel is negative. Therefore, your outlook on life, will reflect that. When you get clean and sober, you begin to view your life differently. You learn that life doesn’t happen to you, it happens for you. We realize that we’re responsible for our lives, and we are in control of our choices. That realization, is powerful it changes your view of the world, and will empower you to make better choices. Information is power, when you know better, you do better, and we all benefit from that.
When you try to connect your beliefs to a pattern of behaviour that you exhibit, it can be difficult. For instance, if I believe that I’m not good enough, then I’m going to choose friends and loved ones who continue to allow me to support that belief. because it gives me the specific outcome, I’m looking for. That’s why, recovery is so difficult, it’s based on change, and change is uncomfortable. Needless to say, there are so many feelings wrapped up in those old beliefs, You built a life upon them. The problem with those beliefs, are they no longer serve you. Releasing them will provide you with the opportunity to enforce positive behaviour which will support growth and expansion.
There is nothing wrong, with patting yourself on the back. It is often said, that the only one you can count on is you, because you know that your the only one to show up, for everything. We all know that counting on someone is difficult to do, because when we open up to someone, we also, open up to disappointment and hurt. The only thing that is certain, is our ability to work through it, because part of growth is believing that what you don’t know, you can certainly learn. Be sure to acknowledge your accomplishments, the more you do, the more you will want to do.
I never imagined that my life would lead me where it has. I always considered myself a foreword thinker. My mind was always open to big ideas. I was never the type to give up, ever, on anything. Always a regular go getter. One of those people who never seem to get enough, and when I say enough, I mean of anything. I was a vacant hole, always needing to be filled. When I found myself lacking, I would proceed to act out in order to get my way. When you use negative behaviour to get your needs met. Those behaviours find a way to feed off themselves, making them destructive, if not dealt with. In most cases, they sabotage any success you think you may have. Putting positive supports in place, and dealing with issues as they come up, will help to ensure a more positive outcome. Looking back and seeing what had to be changed in order to make this possible, has cleared away any doubt I may of had. My future is now clear to be, anything I want it to be.
I never liked good-byes, they always have away of feeling so final, cold, and meaningless. They tend to bring back a feeling of longing, the kind you get while you watch a loved one walk away. I would rather not remember good-byes that way. So, I choose to say farewell, until we meet again. Although, parting brings such sweet sorrow it passes without an end. I’ve had to let go of many things over the last decade, and I could of never done it, if I knew we’d never meet again. You’ve brought me so much pleasure, a true and loyal friend, you have been. You’ve touched my heart in ways you’ll never know. You brought me back from the brink so, many times my friend. When I find myself having a dark and dreary day, I know you’ll be by my side, like you’ve always been. till, we meet again, my true and loyal friend.
In Honour Of Our Beloved Dog Mia.
It was one of those mornings that I should of stayed in bed. First, I put out Sunday’s content, and we all know today isn’t Sunday. That should of clearly said something, there and then. But, no it goes on. I then get the right content out, with you guessed it, mistakes. Now I’m clearly left with a choice, do I go back and try to fix it, making an ass of myself, or do I leave it, because we all make mistakes, right. Well instead, I did this!
This is how I decided to deal with the rest of my day. “ when life gives you lemons, make lemonade.”